My sophomore year of college was honestly the worst. Depression hit me like a wave and pulled me under. I didn’t know it was depression...or maybe I did, but I didn’t want to make it real by saying it out loud. I pushed everyone out and I sat alone in my room, holding the darkness, the hurt, and the hopelessness all by myself until my knees started giving out under me.
That same season of darkness I quickly developed some of the most meaningful and wild friendships I have ever had. Sam, Tyler, Suzi, Pierce, and Jon. They became my people. My family. When I was down, they would take me on an adventure that brought me joy. When I tried to push them out, they came to my house and prayed over me. When I couldn't afford counseling, they handed me a check. Without them - my community - that season would’ve looked a lot darker.
One night, all of us piled into a car and headed to the beach. We laid there for hours just staring at the stars and listening to the waves. I’ll never forget it. There were so many stars out that night and the moon was so bright that we didn’t even need a flashlight. I felt peace there. After that night, the night sky became sort of a safe place for me. Every time I looked up, I was flooded with hope. I would wonder if God put the moon and the stars there just for me - to bring light to my darkness.
Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing.
Did you catch that? God created the stars as an army. An army of stars. I love that. There are an estimated 100 thousand million stars in just the milky way. The stars were not made to stand alone. We were not made to stand alone either. Have you ever noticed that the more stars there are in the sky, the more beautiful it is?
God made the stars and the moon to bring light to the darkness. He created community to bring light to your own darkness and to bring beauty to your brokenness.
If God created the stars as an army, don’t you think we were created to have an army too? Those 100 thousand million stars in the sky were created by Him, and He calls each of them by their own name. They are there on purpose. You are here on purpose for a purpose. The people around you are also around you on purpose. We need an army of stars, a community of people surrounding us.. He did not create the stars to stand alone. He did not create you and me to stand alone. He created us for community.
When you surround yourself with an army of stars, an army of people who are going to fight for you and with you, who are going to walk with you in your darkness...there is light, there is hope, and there is healing, and there is beauty. You can’t bring light to the darkness with just one star. You need an army. You need a community of people around you to bring light to your dark. It seems daunting. How do you find that? Especially in the middle of a pandemic? Reach out to friends and family, go through your church, introduce yourself to your neighbors, maybe even find a facebook group. Your community is out there and they are essential to your healing. I know that because I experienced it.
Without my army - without Tyler or Suzi or Sam or Jon or Pierce - I would have stayed in the darkness. We were not made to fight this fight on our own just like the stars were not made to stand alone. You need your own army of stars to go from hopeless to hopeful. So, look up, be reminded of hope, and find your army of stars to bring light to your darkness.
Caroline is an Atlanta native that just moved back to the city from living in Charleston. She loves to travel, hike, climb, and play music. Love our beautiful graphics? Well you’re looking at the rockstar that creates them. God has gifted Caroline with a passion for creativity through design and she uses this passion to bring HOPE to women everywhere.Connect with her on IG.