When I look back at my completely broken story. My insecurities, my pain, my failed marriage. I would’ve never in a million years thought that MY story would be used to help thousands of women process through brokenness. No way.
But that’s just how stories work. More importantly, that’s how GOD works in our stories. He takes our brokenness; He restores it, redeems it, and then uses it. Don’t believe that sis? Let’s just look at our boy Paul for a second.
The Apostle Paul, or Saul of Tarsus at the time, was first mentioned in the bible in Acts 7:58. The Apostle Stephen was being stoned to death by Jews. His first known appearance was marked by darkness and tragedy. He’d go on to persecute the early disciples of Jesus, ripping them from their homes, throwing them in prison. He was anti-Christian and not only did he imprison male Christians, but female believers as well. (Acts 8:3) He was an abuser, a bully, a hurt person that hurt people--and God still wanted to use him.
For some of us that have been abused, reading this could be triggering. It’s so hard to imagine a sovereign God that could AND would STILL use someone that hurt people to do His will. It’s crazy to imagine that God would use sinners to build His kingdom, but He most definitely does. And in an effort not to compare our stories, but instead, bring them to light. We HAVE to acknowledge and be honest about the sin that’s on the inside of us. We have to be real about the people we’ve hurt, the mistakes we’ve made and the pain we’ve caused other people. We get to admit that we’re broken and imperfect and wired for struggle. Because when we do, God’s continual pursuit and “choosing” of us become that much more miraculous.
When I look at all of my brokenness I would’ve never in a millions years thought that MY story would be used to help thousands of women process through brokenness. No way. I bet Paul felt the same. I bet he looked back at what is now the New Testament, and said, “wow I wrote half of that.” I bet Paul met our Father face to face and said; “Thank you for giving me a second chance. Thank you for allowing my complete brokenness to be used.”
Our hope is that this would be the same for you. Our hope is that if you don’t know God, you’d get to know Him through His son Jesus. If you are in the valleys of brokenness and shame, you’d realize that there’s a mountaintop with your name on it and a Heavenly Father with a hand out to bring you there. Our hope is that you’d NEVER give up on your story. I mean, you wouldn’t be reading this if I had given up on mine.
Our hope is that you’d hold that beautiful head up and be able to say to our Father, “Thank you for giving me a second chance. Thank you for allowing my complete brokenness to be used.”
Toni is a host, communicator and consultant from Houston, arc. And, in this digital age of anxiety, she is teaching people all over the country that you can be young and a boss, and you can be broken and worthy. She doesn’t want you to just face your demons, she wants you to quash the illusion of your brokenness so you can live the most colorful life possible.Connect with Toni to learn more.