While I was in elementary school my mom got really sick and for most of my childhood, I took care of her. I missed a lot of imagination, discovery, wonder, and nurturing. I missed a lot of my childhood. I lost my virginity at 13. I was sexually manipulated and emotionally taken advantage of for years. I grew up way too fast. I looked for validation in all of the wrong places...and people. I suffered from anxiety, an eating disorder, and chronic insecurity. I was married with a child and divorced by 24. I questioned my purpose. I questioned my faith. And at one point I even questioned taking my life. You know, even the most confident people in the world, have a story of brokenness and a walk around with the weightiness of darkness in their hearts.
One of the things we don’t talk about, however, is how darkness damages our feminine hearts. I mean, after all, we have an enemy in Satan who was created as a beautiful being, and because of his greed and demonic enticing, he was taken down by our heavenly father. Now, he lives and breaths to take our hearts down with him. He knows that life flows out of our hearts and if he can access it and pull us down with him, he’s so pleased.
Our hearts need to be protected though, we need to build the fortitude and awareness needed to keep darkness out so that we can live a full and beautifully hopeful life. So, how do we do this?
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One of the things that just absolutely breaks my heart, is the thought that there are other women and teens out there who are in valleys thinking that their brokenness discounts them. When there are stories all throughout the bible, showing these broken people that God empowers to do life-changing, world-shaking things. I want that truth to be told to as many people as possible. I want my daughter to grow up knowing that truth. I want women and teens all over the world walking boldly in that truth.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in brokenness..." (It says weakness but I'm totally remixing this thang) anywho, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in brokenness..." that's Jesus speaking to us. Then in return, we get to say back, "...therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my brokenness so that Christ’s power will rest on me."
We have to find hope in the power of Christ. It’s there and available for us. It’s freely given and it has the strength to outshine even the deepest darkness in our lives.
Toni is a host, communicator and consultant from Houston, arc. And, in this digital age of anxiety, she is teaching people all over the country that you can be young and a boss, and you can be broken and worthy. She doesn’t want you to just face your demons, she wants you to quash the illusion of your brokenness so you can live the most colorful life possible.Connect with Toni to learn more.